October 2010
129 posts
I told my mom that I just want to settle down already and she said “Why? Do you not like your life?”
Umm…well let’s see, my two year old and I live with my parents. I work an ok job, but nothing that really inspires me to do anything with my life. I don’t have many friends anymore - they’re either working all the time or just busy with life. My boyfriend lives two states away. I haven’t saved any money. I don’t really do anything fun anymore. Does this sound like the recipe for happiness? I’m grateful, don’t get me wrong, but I just want to feel like I’m living my own life. It’s partially my fault. I’m not doing anything with my degree in Fashion Design or extra classes in Fashion Merchandising. I’m not participating in any outside activities. I can barely get my lazy ass to the gym that’s five minutes away. Why am I so unmotivated? I mean, really? How did I suddenly get spun off track?
I know I’m just bitching.
Love yourself first. Life isn’t based on relationships, I don’t know why some people make it seem like it’ll be the death of them. Some people just like the idea of being in love more than actually caring about a person. I mean, worry about yourself first. Establish yourself as an individual first, be able to take yourself first. If you can’t do all that, then what can you really do for someone else ?
